2 whole days...

So it's been two whole days since I last saw the team. It's way too weird for me. Only this morning was I finally able to bring myself to read the goodbye letters from the Folder of Luv. I barely made it to the last one, but at least I made it. Maybe a few days from now I'll be ready for the notes in the yearbook.

Graduation morning was so chaotic. I'm infinitely glad that I was able to mail off my boxes, even though I was going crazy while I waited to see if the FedEx guy was really going to show up. I had no time to say any kind of goodbyes to anyone else. Hardly even had time to shower. It was weird to see my room all empty. Once we got to Jefferson, I found Dad. After being confused for a long time, I was finally found by Lorena, who then made me close my eyes to get a "surprise". It was my aunt and my cousin, who traveled over 17 hours the day before to be at my graduation. I couldn't freakin believe it. That meant so much to me. Soooo much. I didn't know what do, to stay and hang out, or go back to the line where I was supposed to be. Finally I went back to the line. Got a bunch of crazy/fun last pictures with the team. When it was finally time to start the ceremony, I was excesively hyper. I finally remembered to stay up front for the AmeriChoir. The ceremony was a lot longer than I had thought it would be, and not really as sad as I thought it was going to be. After passing the fire and at the end though, everything went crazy. People started leaving, spreading out, getting ice cream... all I wanted to do was say goodbye to people not on the team, like Matt, Paul, Danielle, etc. I never found them, which makes me sad. We had a frantic clothes-changing session in the van to head over to Austin Grill for our team and family dinner, which was pretty entertaining. We were a huge crowd at Austin Grill, I'm sure the waitors and the manager hated us, but who cares. The service was not the best and neither was the food by all means (since when is a "queso fundido" just plain nacho cheese? I mean c'mon!), but it was so great to see the team surrounded by family. Drew looks just like his mom, it's adorable. Dave's mom and little brother are so cute and nice. It was awesome to meet Taylor's dad finally, though he couldn't make it to the dinner. When people started leaving though, I freakin fell apart. I am not a hugger, but that's what really got to me. Darn you Tim for being the first to leave and the first to get me sobbing. I'm not good at goodbyes, not at all. Most people I am proud to say really kept it together, the only ones that were really losing it were Sarah and myself. I finally had a really good, close moment with Lampe, and was able to kind of let go of some of the issues I had with her. It was so hard to get in the cab and wave goodbye to everyone. I wonder when we'll really get to all hang out again.

Yesterday we got to do some cool tourist-y stuff. Took the Tourmobile around the monuments, saw the Lincoln again, and finally got to go to the Air and Space museum, which is awesome! Today was pretty chill, Grandma left back to Texas and Licha and Alex went back to Tampico. I can't thank them enough for making all the way up here for me, that's just the coolest thing ever. We're going out to Thai food tomorrow and then to the theater in the evening. Kind of taking it a day at a time. Is today Saturday? I have no concept of time...

Hope everyone else is well and less confused than I am...

-Cris